Just Do it June - Feelings

Today's #DosesOfUniqueness is Feelings....allowing Myself to feel. ✨

Hello and Welcome back to another #DosesofUniqueness!  This morning I woke up… as I’ve said previously before…Blessed!
Today I actually woke up, cooked breakfast made my coffee and out the door by 0630!

These last couple of days, I must admit have been draining.  My emotions have been all over the place.  The events that are going on in the world are just heartbreaking.  A worldwide pandemic, people are dying at a crazy large number, senseless deaths, racism, riots, protesting, looting….. we just seem to be so divided.

I had to disconnect myself for a minute, because the events were making me angry! I have cried, I am journal and prayed.  I trust and believe that God in in control, and he is shifting things as I speak.

So at this moment (currently at work) I am allowing myself to feel.  To educate myself with the Black Americans who have lost their lives to racism and police.  

It really hurts to see a police officer shove a 72 year old man to the ground while he was protesting.  The man was a white man, and was shoved by a police officer so hard that when he hit the ground he started blessed from his head.  I could not believe it.

I just want fair justice!  I am intentionally trying to stay educated and up to date on issues going on in the world.  I must say, I have purposely ignore the news and events because I just didn’t want to see the true.  As some was say I wasn’t “Woke” I just really wanted to believe that if I ignored it, it wasn’t true.  If I didn’t see and face it, it didn’t affect me.  Well it does. I feel so bad for the women, black women who have been killed and no one talks or riots for them.  

I remember toward the end of 2019, I was hearing about women being killed and abducted…but no one even talked about it.  I heard about it via Facebook Messenger and YouTube.  These women stories never hit mainstream news.  Now we have Breanna Taylor! OMG, so sad.  We must be the voice! We must act!

I have been listening was watching books, articles and videos about the lack of support Black woman have in the world.  Just yesterday, a article was posted about a retired CAPT making racial slurs and degrading a black woman.

Lord help us!  We need you!

In my previous post, I listed 10 things I wanted to be intentional about; I’m adding “educate myself” to that!  I am learning that I need to be the voice for those that don’t have it. I need to stop allowing myself pain to make my coworkers and others “Comfortable”.

Feelings…. These are my current feelings and thought. 6/8/20- 0901.

Until next time….🖤